.: the MARY PUMPKINHEAD experience :.

delete delete delete

2011-06-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

hello universe!

just woke up from a very long hibernation. i read the last few posts and decided to unpublish them. hay... i cant believe i spent time retyping 'our' txt messages and posting them for the whole wide world to see. people really become stupid when they are in love. now i can say that from experience hahaha!

-mp

miss

2009-12-05T22:22:00.001+08:00

Miss \Miss\, v. t. [imp. & p. p. Missed (m[i^]st); p. pr. &
vb. n. Missing.]

3. To discover the absence or omission of; to feel the want
of; to mourn the loss of; to want; as, to miss an absent
loved one. --Shak.
[1913 Webster]

m and m

2009-02-22T14:38:00.004+08:00

just got my first sweldo.
am in my 4th month of being sleep-deprived.
will be presenting morbidity and mortality next week... *butterflies*
missing my old bum days...

boo =(

2008-12-02T20:14:00.002+08:00

Christmas wishlist:

1. inner peace
2. inner peace
3. inner peace

*sigh*

beautiful, beautiful song

2008-10-02T18:17:00.002+08:00

i have this fondness for this type of music. how do i call this? yung may pagka-hillbilly/country but slow and peaceful ang melody. haha im not good at describing things! parang 'pigeonhole blacktop' by the biltmores or 'honey and the moon' by joseph arthur. sana marami pa kong marinig na ganito. im open to suggestions...

waray-waray by eartha kitt and more

2008-09-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

trivia: eartha kitt=catwoman of the 60s... i didnt know her until i heard her version of our very own "waray, waray". aliw! it's here, listen!

oldies

e-heads, francism, atbp.

2008-08-31T23:19:00.003+08:00

bad trip. biggest regret ko ngayon? hindi ako nakapunta sa reunion concert ng e-heads. nagkaroon kami ng cassette tape ng albums nila from ultraelectromagnetic pop hanggang sticker happy (or aloha milkyway ba, whichever came last), including bananatype EP. (the most number of albums we have from the same artist). after that we lost touch. pero ngayon ko lang na-realize na ganon ako kalaking fan ng eraserheads. ang sama, sama kasi ng loob ko ngayon. oh and im so sorry to hear about what happened to Ely. good thing he's in a stable condition now. get well!

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fixated talaga ako sa 90s. here's another youtube find. remember music bureau on abc5? the one hosted by mr francism at kung hindi ako nagkakamali, ito ang palabas bago mag-tropang trumpo. naaaliw ako pag nakakakita ako ng mga ganitong videos sa net. the bands, music, the fashion, sarap balikan hehe! miss ko na ang color it red, the youth, teeth, the dawn, after image, agaw agimat, tribal fish, grin dept, introvoys (hehe), atbp! sana may mag-upload pa ng ibang videos.

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syempre makakalimutan ko ba si francism? isa din ako sa mga nalungkot after learning about him having leukemia. my gosh! what's happening to our 90s music icons?! anyway, here's a tribute to ely and francism. so ironic na meron pa silang video together. i hope they both get well.

mabuhay ang musikang pilipino!

jimmy page in beijing!

2008-08-25T13:43:00.001+08:00

pics courtesy of cctv.com

led zep's mr. page (sweeeet!) along with leona lewis and david beckham went to Beijing to represent Britain in the olympic closing ceremony. i knew the closing ceremony will be just as stunning as the opening! too bad i missed it! unfortunately, all of the videos in youtube have been taken down already. this video is just a compilation of pictures from that event.

Beijing Closing Ceremony - Olympic Games 2008 - Click here for more blooper videos

RIP Leroi Moore

2008-08-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

Leroi Moore 1961-2008

Dave Matthews Band saxophonist Leroi Moore dies at 46 from complications of his ATV accident injuries last June.

Condolences to his family and bandmates.

Beijing Olympics!

2008-08-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

hen piao liang!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QwOYH6B2EjU

this ones shorter but with better quality:

Beijing China - Olympic Games Opening 8.08.2008 - The top video clips of the week are here

proud to be tsinoy hehe!

overjoyed

2008-08-07T13:00:00.007+08:00

yesterday my eleven-year-old cousin got home from school all excited to show me something. she told me not to get too overjoyed as she reached into her bag and pulled out her surprise--torn japanese magazine pages that contain jin akanishi, KAT-TUN and other JE idol articles!!! i got so ecstatic and puzzled at the same time. are those for real? how the heck was she able to get those? in school!? then she told me they had this activity to make a collage out of old magazines and her classmate happened to bring 2006 issues of myojo and duet mags, a magazine that solely features japanese idols (they're like the Bop, BB and Teenbeat of japan). hahaha kids' junk nowadays... good thing they didn't cut out jin's pic for their project. ;D although i've already seen those articles online from fan scans, it still feels different when you are holding the real thing even if it's not the whole mag. buti na lang my cousin is smart enough to know about my love for those kinds of stuff particularly for jin which i am constantly denying to her. now that i cant deny it anymore, she always makes sumbong to my parents about my jin addiction. she could be so annoying but i still thank God for an awesome little cousin! by the way, she told her classmate to bring more of those mags today. YATTA!

you see, even if i try to keep myself from going online so i could stop fangirling, this happens. for the past few months i've been blogging about my japanese boys and now im afraid this "men-who-can-pull-off-a-feminine-look fetish" keeps getting worse. oh well at least im happy.

some people have all the luck

2008-07-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

while doing my usual kat-tun rounds over the internet, i came across a kat-tun page by a filipino fan girl. at first, i was actually having fun reading and even posted a comment. she even wrote back. i was so excited to know that someone shares the same passion i have for kat-tun (for akanishi jin in particular). but as i was browsing more into her pages, i was so surprised to learn that she's got a whole lot of kat-tun stuff--magazines, uchiwa(fan), necklaces! (the same ones that kat-tun have), dvds and photobook!!!! and she's got even more than what i see in japanese fan pages. OMG! Laos ang pagka-fangirl ko!!!! she's got to be rich. i mean how much is one uchiwa? Php700? a magazine also costs about the same. (more than triple pa ng Bop and BB nung panahon ko). how much more yung mga dvds and accessories? and those things are not even available here in the third world. i can tell that she's that type of fangirl that would be able to spend that much to be in the front row during the kat-tun philippine tour (someday) and would be able to avail one of those meet-and-greet passes! this is what i was talking about in my previous post! i am so freaking jealous right now i feel like crying!!!! gosh i wanna die now! somebody needs psychiatric help...

akanishi post

2008-07-10T21:56:00.005+08:00

syempre di naman daw ako pumayag na walang akanishi post for today. nalulungkot lang ako. paano kung pumunta dito si jin? although gustong-gusto ko syang makita, ayoko pa yata siyang pumunta dito. and here are the reasons why:

1) there's a huge chance na mami-miss ko ang concert nya. syempre, priority ko naman ang trabaho kahit paano. (eto eh kung darating sya habang nagdu-duty nako which is highly probable). walang sinumang gwapong japanese pop idol ang tatapat sa mga nakakatakot na seniors sa workplace ko.

2) wala akong makakasama sa concert (minor lang naman na reason to). wala lang, parang malungkot manood pag mag-isa lang. eh wala naman akong kilalang ibang fan dito kundi sarili ko. may mga pinoys na nagpopost sa forums pero mahirap sumama sa mga "fanclub" dahil for sure, di naman ako makakapag-commit. at useless ako kasi wala naman ako mako-contribute sa kanila. (seriously, inisip ko talaga ang pagsali sa fanclub hehe).

3) i am a jealous fan. siguradong madedepress lang ako kapag nalaman ko na may mga fans na nakakuha ng "meet and greet" passes. syempre hindi naman ako VIP at lalong wala akong connection para makakuha nun. (yun ang pinaka-sad na part) ang swerte talaga ng press people.

haaaay.... nalulungkot talaga ko. grabe na ang mania na ito. hindi na healthy minsan. nag-iinvest ako ng feelings sa wala. at matagal ko nang sakit ito.

nakakadepress na post. ang arte hehe! pagtatawanan ko lang to pag nagsubside na ang obsession ko kay jin. i'll take this down soon.

to end this post... here are translated quotes from jin akanishi. natutuwa ako sa kanya kasi he seems to be mature at such an early age. he's good with children and there are videos to prove that. gusto nya na magkaroon ng pamilya! he wants to have 5 kids?! by the time na iluwal ko yung pangatlo baka high-risk na ko. huhuhu! hindi talaga ko pwede for him. he deserves someone younger. grrrrrrrrr!

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"Marriage? I hope to get married early on. I want to be a young dad, with 3 kids (laugh). I'll definitely be embarrasingly affectionate with my own children. If I had a daughter, I don't even know if I'd be able to work (laugh). I have a family friend with a kindergarten-aged daughter, and the other day, she said, "If Jin comes to my school's arts festival, I'll do my best!" I went, and even woke up early for it."

"Even with my future wife, I don't think it will last long without friendship. If a time comes when I can't see the love between the two of us anymore, if there's still friendship there, our relationship will continue. I think that friendship is created as two people get used to one another, and that as you get used to love, it becomes difficult to see.

Marriage begins not as love but as a more romantic and affectionate feeling, and the love-- rather, passion-- slowly cools off. But, if it's rooted in friendship, if the two can continue on the rest of their lives as friends. So, in a marriage partner, what I look for is someone who can be a friend for life. Doesn't a marriage that starts off with passion and end with friendship sound really cool?"

--JJ magazine, 2006

"Of course, I also hope to get married. I don't understand people who think marriage is a cemetery. Having family is something essential in everyone's life. So, I want anywhere from 3 to 5 kids. I'm not kidding (laugh). I would want my wife to do housework, after all. That doesn't mean I want her to do everything by herself, but I wouldn't want her to be someone who feels that she doesn't have to do anything. Plus, I wouldn't be the domineering husband type, so I have a feeling that as a couple, we would still be like friends. Even after getting married, it would be like having a friend over and having fun together. Wouldn't that be great?"

--Popolo, March 2008

Cartoon KAT-TUN 040608 (he was interviewing 3 girls. one of them said that she goes out with 3 guys at the same time)

Jin: Do you have a physical relationship with all of them?

Girls: No, isn't it weirder if you didn't?

Jin: Exactly... Are you together just for this?

Girls: Don't you give in to your hunger? By like taking meals and stuff. I am just saying, it's not just like that. I mean, there's nobody who limits herself to just one person. Really. Boys can't be trusted. What of half they say are all lies.

Jin: That's not true. I am not. For me, when we are dating, it is a time for me to know each other better before marriage. So I don't date someone without thinking of marriage. (mp: winner to! finally, someone who's on my side. i was surprised that he said this. i totally agree with his views on love and marriage. dapat ikuwadro ang quote na ito)

Girls: So you're saying dating and marriage are not two different things but one whole together, like an extended match? You're young. Young.

Girls: Like for me if I am dating someone really hot and cute and I really like him, but if you ask me if I can marry him, my answer's definitely a no.

Girls: Yah, I definitely can't too.

Jin: For me, at that point of time, I'll break up

(credits to bonjovial.livejournal.com and maishampoo.livejournal.com for the translations)

ni hao! wuchun is coming to town!

2008-07-10T21:15:00.004+08:00

OMG! WuChun, star of Hana Kimi Taiwan, ROmantic Princess, etc., is coming here in a few days! abot-kamay na ang pangarap ng WuChun fandom dito. grabe, kelan lang sya sumikat dito. buti na lang hindi ako naging die-hard fan nya. kundi, baka magpakamatay ako pag di ko napanood concert nya dito. pero parang excited pa rin ako sa pagdating nya. hehehe. afterall, naging fan din naman ako ng hana kimi taiwan. at saka yung series na yun ang nag-open ng doors to my j-dorama mania and eventually to my jin akanishi mania! hehehe! napaaral pa nga ako ng basic mandarin dahil sa kanya. sayang nga lang kasi tinigilan ko. by the way, here's the link to his personal blog. read especially the list of activities... nagtagalog pa sya hehe. how sweet!

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool/9673122

zai jian!

happy birthday my dear...

2008-07-04T15:28:00.003+08:00

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it's jin friggin akanishi's birthday today. video spam ahead...

caution: hot hot hot!

such a sweetheart...

funny casting skit (pay attention to jin's facial expressions)

smile challenge (i know he hates to lose)

parking challenge (6:35 and 6:56-57---priceless!)

anime freak

2008-06-27T13:35:00.008+08:00

cartoon KAT-TUN anime special! their guest was the anime/cosplay expert and manga artist, shoko nakagawa who was very good at drawing and imitating anime characters especially sailormoon! *highschool flashback* so they talked about anime stuff (of course) dragonball, sailormoon and the likes, fave scenes, etc. to prove how big of an anime freak the guest was, she challenged KAT-TUN for an anime theme song guessing game and it was funny how the KAT-TUN members were so dying to answer! they would even sing along some of the themes. as a surprise for their guest, they had Ichiru Mizuki in the show, the original singer of the mazinger z theme. wow pati ako na-surprise! and there was even a drawing segment on the show where everyone did a cellphone "humanisation". Watch it here: http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-291968/Cartoon-Kat-Tun-Episode-43.html

not for fangirl haters

2008-06-23T23:00:00.006+08:00

I said that I wouldn’t write anymore j-stuff because I myself am already getting tired of reading my redundant posts. And while the whole country is trying to recover from typhoon Frank's rage, here i am ranting and raving like a teenybopper. Gomen ne, I guess I can’t stop the fangirl in me...Okay there’s this boyband that I like, yes, boyband. im not a fan of boybands nowadays because I find them boring and cheesy most of the time but these guys are different. They’re actually POP IDOLS in Japan. Kinda like F4 in Taiwan but way way better! (omg im sorry F4) and hotter! They’re called KAT-TUN which is an acronym for Kamenashi, Akanishi, Taguchi, Tanaka, Ueda and Nakamura, their names of course. i only saw them a while ago and right now I dying to buy their album already! Exaggerated noh? Actually before I became a fan, I was already very fond of their lead vocalist, Akanishi Jin. I’ve been watching his j-doramas not so long ago. So ayun pwedeng sya ang dahilan ng obsession na ito hehe. Joke!

Perhaps for some people, they may just be like typical asian boy groups with thin eyebrows who do singing, dancing, a bit of acting, blah blah blah. But these guys are exceptional. They all started out as kids/teenagers at Johnny’s Entertainment (sort of like a talent agency that produced a lot of young male pop idols in Japan). If I remember it right, before you can enter Johnny’s, you should be able to pass the audition and do backflips. Their dancing for me is at the same level as that of our Maneouvres. Not bad di ba? Akanishi is god-like when he dances, I swear! Singing-wise…well aside from their lead vocalists, they have a rapper and a beatbox in the group. Sosyal! I think their genre is bordering between pop and rock (baka maraming mag-disagree dito) and that’s another reason why I like them. And I must say that their music videos kick ass. Astig ng concept! And their live concerts are just as astig. Ganda ng effects! Ang galing talaga ng Japanese!

I almost forgot that they also host their own show, Cartoon KAT-TUN. One time they had Larc-en-ciel(a j-rock band) as a guest in one of their episodes and Hyde, the lead vocals, confessed that he likes doraemon! KAT-TUN, Larc-en-Ciel and doraemon in one show—kawaii!!! Not only did they have local artists as a guest. They had Avril Lavigne, Alicia Keys, Ne-yo and Nicolas Cage even! Ang kukulit pa ng segments nila. If you want to see what im blabbing about, they’re all over youtube and crunchyroll. Hay, I could talk about them all day. I could even devote another blog for Akanishi Jin! Pero eto na lang for now. Jaa ne! Akanishi-kun, aishiteru yo!

KAT-TUN music videos from youtube:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6-qK6KlmPt8
http://youtube.com/watch?v=RIkl64MrDm8
http://youtube.com/watch?v=NwlCtdrMYFA

batang 80s

2008-06-13T10:21:00.000+08:00

just another one of those youtube finds that make me want to go back to that era of electronic keyboards, synthesizers and drum machines!

this is Blue Kiss by Jane Wiedlin of The Go-go's

remembering "robert akizuki"

2008-05-24T12:19:00.001+08:00

remember that 80s tv show? tetsuo kurata aka masked rider black (robert akizuki in the phils) is just one of the MANY kamen riders in the kamen rider series. i came across this video as i was trying to find episodes of kamen rider kabuto, one of the modern kamen rider series which stars mizushima hiro *sigh* (my newest "j-crush"). i didn't know until today that "robert akizuki" sang the opening song for the 80s series himself! hahaha this made my day!

o eto may lyrics pa di ba!

Toki o koero sora o kakero kono hoshi no tame

Kimi wa mita ka ai ga makka ni moeru no o ?
Kurai yami no soko de kiken na wana ga matsu
Shinjiru yatsu wa justice shinjitsu no ooja
Yume o mitsuzukeru koto ga ore no fantasy
Ikiru koto ga suki sa aoku ukabu cosmo
Toki o koero sora o kakero kono hoshi no tame
Atsuku moyase namida nagase asu to iu hi ni
Kamen rider black kamen rider black

Kuroku hikaru body haato ni ti ga kayou
Kaze ga hakobu uta ni kimoti ga futo yureru
Shinpai shitagaru magician ayashige na esper
Tatakau toki wa soldier ore no hokori sa
Kono tikyu ga suki sa kokoro yurushita tomo
Towa ni mamore wakasa hajike kono ai no tame
Ima o moyase tsuyoku ikiro kyu to iu hi o
Kamen rider black kamen rider black

Shinjiru yatsu wa justice shinjitsu no ooja
Yume o mitsuzukeru koto ga ore no fantasy
Ikiru koto ga suki sa aoku ukabu cosmo
Toki o koero sora o kakero kono hoshi no tame
Atsuku moyase namida nagase asu to iu hi ni
Kamen rider black kamen rider black

ps.
this is robert akizuki today...

choosing a residency program

2008-05-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

having problems deciding which way to go? well this flowchart might be of help... =p

more j-dorama rants and raves

2008-04-23T13:04:00.004+08:00

Hana Kimi Japan (and Taiwan)

Hana Kimi (HK) is a series adapted from the manga, Hanazakari no Kimitachi e, which is about a young, japanese girl from the US who disguises herself as a boy and transfers to an all-boys high school in Japan to be with the high-jump athlete she idolizes. I’ve read forums comparing the Japanese and Taiwanese adaptations and having appreciated both, it’s kinda irritating to see HK Japan and HK Taiwan fans fight over which version is better and saying outright that this version sucks without even coming up with a valid reason. While it is true that they have the same theme or storyline whatever, the two series certainly have different approaches in portraying the story. I just don’t know which one is more faithful to the manga. This doesn’t matter to me though and I haven’t read the manga anyway. For me, they are almost like 2 different series like one version is not an imitation of the other. I like both versions. I find the Taiwan version mushier, it had more “kilig” factor and Ella Chan’s acting alone is already funny and outstanding. What made it more exciting is the emphasis given on the girl’s obstacles while disguised as a guy--not much in the jap version. The story strictly revolves around the main characters. The japanese adaptation however has a lot of side stories which is sometimes a bit dragging but sometimes made the story even more entertaining. In fact, the minor characters are more remarkable and not to mention good-looking on this one than on the taiwan version. And the series has that distinct anime humor which I love. You probably don’t know what I’m talking about. Anyway, i think the Japanese ended the series better. The ending was so heart-breaking. No wonder this series caught the Best Drama, Best Actress and Best Supporting Actor awards in Japan. The Taiwanese ending sort of left me hanging but still, I enjoyed the series as a whole. HK fans, tell me what you think.

Bambino!

2008-04-23T09:16:00.004+08:00

I’m so into j-doramas lately and this is the most recent one I have finished watching. This is an inspiring manga adaptation about an enthusiastic, young cook who comes to work at an Italian restaurant in Tokyo with a dream of becoming a chef. He was at first so full of himself until he discovers that his skills were incomparable to that of the very quick and efficient staff there and so he continually learns and proves himself to them. Although I’m not very fond of dramas, I like this series because I can somehow relate to the main character, I like the inspiring dialogues, i like Italian food and I love cooking shows! I don’t cook though. The main character is portrayed by Jun Matsumoto of Gokusen, Hana Yori Dango fame, who is now one of my favorite actors =D. I’ve seen at least 4 of his movies/series and he made me cry each time! He won a Best Actor award for Bambino by the way.

grad song

2008-03-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

this madonna hit reminds me of our highschool graduation...more than brendan fraser's movie. (yeah just another highschool flashback) this was actually one of our 2 memorable 'swan songs', the other being 'in my life' by the beatles. and our whole batch sang the a capella versions on stage. my cousin's primary school, on the other hand, is having 'the gift' by jim brickman as their graduation song tomorrow. i suck at reading between the lines but i believe that there are a hundred songs better or more appropriate than that. what do you think? i kinda feel like listing the best and the worst grad songs.

anyway, i googled for the top graduation themes of this generation and found this:

Top 10 Graduation Songs - 2007 by about.com

1. Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
2. Nickelback - Photograph
3. Carrie Underwood - Whenever You Remember
4. Tom Petty - I Won't Back Down
5. 10,000 Maniacs - These Are Days
6. The Ataris - In This Diary
7. Josh Groban - You Raise Me Up
8. Sarah McLachlan - I Will Remember You
9. Queen - We Are the Champions
10. Cyndi Lauper - True Colors

congratulations to all graduates!!!!

moonpools and caterpillars doing a juan dela cruz

2008-03-17T07:50:00.002+08:00

omg look at kimi's energy onstage! she kinda messed up with the lyrics but who cares? she's the coolest!

'Beep beep' is my fave Juan Dela Cruz Band song (i love you Sir Pepe Smith!) and was covered by this fil-am band, Moonpools and Caterpillars, who unfortunately disbanded in 1998. Their lead vocalist, kimi ward is actually married to the guitarist Jayjay encarnacion. (hence the "asawa ko, pilipino!") i first heard the band from the soundtrack of the movie 'babysitter's club' in highschool. if you want to know more about the band, i found another video of their interview in '5 and up'. remember that kiddie show? i so loved that. i also found a 1989 video of their Roxy performance! sweeeeet! thank God for the generous people in youtube.

incubus in manila 2008

2008-03-11T08:40:00.012+08:00

i cant show how elated i still am right now. i got some pretty crappy pictures to share. awesome pics by other attendees here: http://www.enjoyincubus.com/node/14450
i have my videos uploaded in youtube. pardon me for screaming in the background most of the time.

here's to the most beautiful man to ever walk the earth...

2008-03-02T21:52:00.004+08:00

i'm glad that we'll be able to catch up this time. see you on March 9. *sigh*

contents of an old box

2008-02-27T14:06:00.004+08:00

just some stuff from a long time ago. click on the pic!

Juno vs Enid

2008-02-25T20:00:00.006+08:00

i saw Juno yesterday and it reminded me of Ghost World, a 2001 movie starring Thora Birch, steve buscemi, scarlet johansson and brad renfro (yihee). i dont know exactly what the similarities are. was it the humor, spontaneity, the music or the characters (Juno played by Ellen Page and Enid played by Thora Birch in Ghost World)? more of the last one perhaps. i know im gonna have a hard time finding someone who agrees with me on this because Ghost World is rather unpopular in the Phils. In fact, i only knew about it because Brad was in it. Anyway, i found this article online and got all excited:

http://sarcastig.wordpress.com/2008/02/10/ghost-world-or-enid-juno/

I actually enjoyed Juno but not as much as Ghost World. I think the latter is way cooler. hehe.

1000 hits

2008-02-21T12:39:00.005+08:00

i just found out that colin farell's pic on one of my posts increases the traffic to my page.

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Another Brad Renfro Video Tribute

i guess i will never ran out of Brad Renfro stuff to give you. here's a video made by a fellow BR admirer i met at myspace. Her name is sophie and she's also put up a forum, Southern Comfort , for BR people. see the link on the right side?

check this out she included me on this vid! thank you sophie!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiB-8aXNBuw

this one's the first version
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRkeUYe-3-Y

brad pic of the day:

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Pahabol:

im currently listening to Colbie Caillat's beautiful music. that is all!!!

Boards

2008-02-19T09:15:00.014+08:00

the February 2008 physician licensure exam has just ended. about 3 days from now, the results will be out and this period (the waiting), is TORTURE to the examinees. looking back 6 months ago, i felt this same pressure and fortunately ended it with triumph. but i never wrote about the details about my 'boards' experience during my time. i guess this is the best time to reminisce...

(caution: boring material ahead. This is intended only for the author’s reading pleasure anyway. The main reason I wrote this is because I didn’t want to lose this wonderful memory.)

internship ended in April 2007 and i barely had 3 months to study for the August 2007 boards. but right before internship ended, i deviced a plan on how i was gonna go through reviewing. this includes surfing the net and asking people for feedbacks regarding the past boards and the best review materials, deciding on which review center i was gonna enroll and making a schedule for my self-review (of the 12 subjects in 3 months).

May 2007. Laid-back. This month started with me going to Puerto Galera with my co-interns. we stayed there for 3 days and celebrated the end of a chapter in our med lives. after that, i moved back to my home in Laguna where we had TV and internet and planned to stay there during the review. (good luck to me!) i watched tv from morning til night (that is 'mirmo' to rounin') but still tried to read something. but before i knew it, the month has ended with me not having finished reviewing a single subject.

June 2007. Panic. the 1-week UP review classes i enrolled in started a few days before May ended. Basically, the review was just a series of mock board exams per subject which were discussed at the end of the session. and like a real board exam, our percentile scores/ranking were obtained and posted! that UP review was not pretty much of a 'review' to me but mock exams merely but it sure gave me the motivation to study. after seeing the disappointing results, i realized that if i were to take the boards at that time, i would have failed. after the UP review, i immediately decided to move in to some place where there is less distraction). luckily, i found the best place--a quiet room in a church mission house in pasay. no tv. no internet. well there's a bit of music. i had this small radio and i regularly tuned in to mo twister's show in the morning. i did some gruelling review about 4 days a week. on fridays, my family would take me out to the movies (i got to watch transformers) or go dining or shopping before we go home in laguna. on mondays, i travel back to manila to get my arse back to reviewing.

July 2007. Cramming. it's not enough to read the reviewers once. but there's just too many of them. plus i havent even scanned on other materials yet and boards was only a month away. It was a hard time trying to think of which review materials to salvage since I cannot go over all of them anymore. And at this time, I was still buying review materials which I think were patok(effective). I was at the highest level of freakin out during this time and I frequently get palpitations. Exchanging text messages with friends were a bit of comfort to me. Also, about once or twice, my friends and I got together for a group study which always turned out to be a tanungan/lokohan session but it is from times like such that I gained strength and courage.

August 2007. Judgment day. (or days—2 consecutive Saturdays and Sundays). I cannot say I was prepared. I was definitely not. i can never be prepared. i lack the time and my brain just couldn’t take it anymore. im so freaking scared. I cried so hard when my parents called me up the day before the exams. I barely had sleep that night perhaps out of nervousness and because of people who kept texting me until 2am in the morning! =) i woke up at 5am, took a bath, ate breakfast, read a bit and at 6:30am im off to the testing center. I brought some reviewers with me and some Red Ribbon pastries and chocolates as my baon. This routine I did on all four exam days. The exams went a bit okay during the first day.

I overslept the night before the second day. I failed to review anything for the first exam. I ended the day with disappointment and went home in Laguna with a bit of hopelessness. The exams were difficult but what pissed me off was learning about a particular reviewer that could have been so patok had I reviewed it. So many things went to my mind. That particular exam was not really so difficult but anyone who got hold of that reviewer could easily ace the exam. The passing score for each of the exam depends on the average score of the examinees. The higher the average, the higher is the passing score. Now where does that put me?! But I thought I had to move on. There are 6 more exams ahead.

On the 3rd day, same routine I did. Nothing really to note for except for the increasingly difficult exams and this person I met at a fastfood. I was falling in line at the counter to order my dinner, when i caught this guy wearing polo shirt and white pants, in front of me staring at my white blazer. I assume he was checking my name in there. Then he asked “Doktora, madali ba ang exam?”. Thinking that we was a co-examinee I replied, “mas nahirapan ako ngayon kesa nung first week”. The he said “ah ganun ba. Naku! Ano ba pangalan mo? {my last name}? Aabangan ko pangalan mo sa dyaryo ha.” I laughed it off as I he went away. I didn’t know what to say. Was that a compliment? That even left me some more pressure. After that, I realized he was not an examinee. My friends told me it could be a premonition.

Last day of exam. By this time I was so mentally stressed out and emotionally drained. I wasn’t able to eat my baon anymore. im getting sick of mamon and chocolates in between breaks. That day I was only waiting for the clock to strike 4pm.

Oh and how could I forget about the superstitions:

1) once you finished, go straight home and don’t look back. Looking back means youre ‘coming back’(for the re-take)—-Well I hanged around for a bit at the testing center after the exam to wait for my other friends hoping that we could go out to detoxify or something.

2) break your pencils. Not breaking it implies that you might be using it again for the re-take.—-I didn’t break mine. I passed my pencils on to my lil cousin for her highschool entrance exams. The proctors were handing out letters asking us to donate our pencils but I left the room early so I wasn’t able to donate some of mine.

3) wear something red. Red means good luck.—I didn’t do this either. I brought a red ballpen with me though.

4) Bring Red Ribbon mamon. I don’t know where this one came from.—This one I did but only because I like red ribbon pastries.

Post-boards. Relieved. After the exam my friends and I went straight to St. Jude Catholic Church in Manila. Im not catholic though. as expected, the sermon was about the exam. At the end of the service, the priest asked us examinees to go to the front so he can pray for us. I remember him praying to God for strength for people who will not receive a good news after the results are out (something like that) and suddenly some people were emotional. But just like I told my friend, we may have lacked the time to review, we may have guessed on most questions and we may seem to have less chances of passing but we cant do anything about it. the exams already ended and the most that we can do is to pray and to not entertain these negative thoughts. And so after the mass, we headed to a friend’s house, had a sumptuous dinner her mother prepared and went home.

The next day, I woke up late, tried to relax, watched cable tv at the church mission house and went to trinoma mall with one of my buddies. We had pizza and then went to see Ratatouille. I very much liked the movie and pretty much had a blast but as soon as I went home, I lost that feeling. I could not pretend to be strong anymore. I could not convince myself any longer that I have a good chance of passing. I cried my heart out that night and slept all the fear away.

Day 2 after the exams, my parents fetched me from the mission house. We said good bye to the caretakers and they took me out for shopping and good food. And then home sweet home at last. I was numb by this time. There were rumours that the results are going to be out that night. I waited until 2am but there was none. False alarm!

The verdict. At 9pm on the 3rd day after the exams, my family and I were coming home from a prayer meeting when buddy sent me a text asking me if I could go online to see if the results are out. They heard that the results are already posted outside PRC and that the security guard there told somebody that the passing rate was only 54%! How reliable could that be?!! As soon as I got home, I went online but still got no results. I was nervous, excited and a bit restless at the same time but I was expecting it to come out at 12 midnight so I tried to relax until I got another text. It said “Congratulations {insert my full name here}, MD!” I didn’t know what to do first: check my name online or call my friend. Anyway, I had my dad do the first. I called up my friend and she said they went to the Manila Bulletin and made a scene there after learning that everyone in our circle of friends passed! Finally I saw my name on the results online. Then I answered call after call until the next day. I thought about that premonition and the Red Ribbon mamon! Seriously though, I believe God brought me to this career and so He brought me through it. From day one, Ive been thinking that this is a calling and this is more than enough reason to pass. Still up to this day, I have been so thankful.

September 2007. Thankful. This is us at the oath-taking.

Good times...

valentine post

2008-02-16T08:29:00.002+08:00

napipilitan lang hehe.

tuwing Vday, sa pamilya namin, ako lang ang walang dahilan para magcelebrate pero ako lang ang nakakatanggap ng regalo galing sa kanila. either favorite lang talaga nila ko or naaawa sila sakin kasi wala akong valentine. pampalubag-loob in other words. hmmmmmmm....

happy 27th anniversary to my mum and dad!--reason for having good food on valentine. woohoo!

sayang di ako nakapunta sa febfair kagabi.

entry #38

2008-02-09T12:46:00.000+08:00

Brad's autopsy report is out. cause of death is accidental heroin overdose. im heartbroken once again. but i dont care about any more bullsh*t that the others are gonna say. he is a great and talented person and nothing can ever change that.

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on a lighter note...

Kung hei fat choi!!!

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if you wanna have a bit of a laugh.

i've never heard of the brendan leonard show (BLS) until another Brad fan posted their videos in a forum.

Hair

I heart Michael Carney! "chirp, chirp, moooo" bwahahahahahaha!

I See Dead People (Part 1)

The Leonards....(Brendan's the cutest thing on this one!)
Underrated Injuries: A Painful Lesson

RIP Heath Ledger

2008-01-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Barely 7 days after Brad's death, another young, promising hollywood actor died adding to a growing number of young artists whose deaths are inevitably linked to drug-related causes. The results of their autopsies are inconclusive at the moment though.

Remembering Heath Ledger

I admit i'm not Heath's biggest fan but i have seen at least 3 of his movies. One is Brokeback Mountain. i wasnt really fond of watching love stories because i find it cheesy most of the time. but it was different with brokeback mountain. i liked the movie. the love that was shown was kind of forbidden and unpredictable yet it seemed even more genuine than the usual love stories that are portrayed. I was touched and I believe Heath Ledger and Jake Gylenhaal deserve praises for their brave and moving performances. RIP Heath Ledger. Condolences to his loved ones and fans.

here's to the highlight of my highschool life

2008-01-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

just to show you how much Brad Renfro meant to me...

The dusty old plastic envelop that contains my every Brad Renfro stuff.

Pinups, centerfolds and huge posters i got mostly from BB, BOP and Teenbeat mags. Some are courtesy of my friends.

Some more pinups, printouts and pictures...

Little cutouts i got even from the cheapest local magazines.

some clippings of every bit of info about him

i transcribed some of his movies as well.

Call it obsession. but im never gonna deny that i was once a Ren-freak. Too bad he's never gonna see this.

Re: "now you're gone and i feel bad i never wrote to you like i used to write to others."<-- wait a minute, i think i did write to you. its just that you never replied like i was expecting.

Brad Renfro 1982-2008

2008-01-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

Brad renfro, you were my first 'serious' crush and i was your biggest fan. sayo lang umikot ang mundo ko nung high school and everybody knows that. i liked you a lot and i have a collection of posters and clippings to prove that. i knew your lines by heart. it's just sad that we lost touch after apt pupil. but i'll never get tired of watching your movies over and over again. you are the reason why i got myself hooked to jimmy page, led zeppelin and rock and roll in general. "Pagey", "Angel", "Ren-freak"--nicknames i used, all associated with you. i always mark July 25 (your birthday) on my every calendar. i bought every magazine i could buy that contains brad renfro stuff. i spent hours and hours over the internet (then expensive) just for you. i grieved when i learned you were dating Gaby Hoffman. i remember how i used to tell my friends that i'd still be in love with you after 10 or 20 years. that was how much i fancy you. You were my dream. now you're gone and i feel bad i never wrote to you like i used to write to others. i feel shattered. Like what someone in IMDB said, "The 12 yr. old somewhere in me is crushed."-- well only it was about 13 or 14 yr old for me. Goodbye Brad Renfro, may you rest in peace.

From "The Cure"

Dexter (Joseph Mazello): Suppose you kept going another 18 billion light years, what if there's nothing out there? Suppose you kept going another trillion times further, so far out you see nothing. The light from the universe would be fainter than the faintest star. Infinitely cold. Infinitely dark. Sometimes if I wake up and it's dark, I get really scared, like I'm out there and I'm never coming back.

Erik (Brad Renfro): Here, hold onto this when you sleep. And if you wake up and you're scared, you'll say, "Wait a minute. I'm holding Eric's shoe. Why the hell would I be holding some smelly basketball shoe a trillion light years from the universe? I must be here on earth, safe in my sleeping bag, and Eric must be close by."

what bums do best

2008-01-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

You Are Chardonnay

Fresh, spirited, and classic - you have many facets to your personality.
You can be sweet and light. Or deep and complex.
You have a little bit of something to offer everyone... no wonder you're so popular.
Approachable and never smug, you are easy to get to know (and love!).

Deep down you are: Dependable and modest

Your partying style: Understated and polite

Your company is enjoyed best with: Cold or wild meat

What Kind of Wine Are You?

You Should Wear Mauve Lip Gloss

Smart, polished, and pretty.

What Color Lip Gloss Should You Wear?

Your Pimp Name Is...

Pimptastica Tickler

What's Your Pimp Name?

You Are Smores

Unusual and unconventional, you make your strange ways work for you.
You've got personality - no one's denying that!

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

Your Slanguage Profile

Aussie Slang: 50%

Prison Slang: 50%

British Slang: 25%

Canadian Slang: 25%

New England Slang: 25%

Victorian Slang: 25%

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

2007-10-27T18:34:00.001+08:00

my newest boytoy....

2007-09-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

Ichigo Kurosak *sigh*

ang mga wannabes...hehe

ano na nga ba yung huling anime na kinahumalingan ko? nakalimutan ko na... akala ko graduate nako sa anime. until i saw bleach... huhuhu. either mababaw na lang talaga ang taste ko sa anime because my brain is so fogged up with medical stuff or maganda lang talaga ang bleach. hay, ADIK na naman ako once again.

BOARD EXAM ESPEYSYAL

2007-08-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

Looking back.

2 months pre-boards… quotable quotes galing sa inyow! patok ba ang mga tips???

- dear doctors, I see dt your tired, I tel u,drop yourbooks and rest for a while. Why worry too much about the fight? Smile. :-)… be confident! All you have to do is to prepare well and be in the examination rum… Then, against d 100 questns dat tried to destroy u, there I’ll stand and rescue u. Passing the BOARDS requires not ONLY ME nor you but rather ME and you. Do your best and I’ll take care of the rest. Your examiner, GOD

- PRAYER BEFORE STUDYING: Lord, true source of light and wisdom, grant me a keen sense of understanding, a retentive memory, and the ability to grasp thing correctly. Grant me the grace to be accurate in my expositions, and be able to express with thoroughness and clarity. Be with me at the start of my work, guide its progress, and bring it to completion. Amen

- Mahirap talaga mag-aral..lalo na kung dka sanay.. ngayon ko lang to ginawa buong buhay ko, haha!

- Eto expert na sa pagtunganga! Kaw nu na? pang top na ba? [me: dream on] hehe.. napapraning nako.

- Watz up? Did u guys went to prc?Hw was it? Toxic? Damn! My rqts r stil in process dat registrar driving me nuts my name in my TOR is crap! Mispelled! Stil 2 w8 for 3 days 2 receive that damn TOR!

- Hay naku. Gusto ko lng ishare imbiyerna ko kay _____! Mgpapapicture kmi ngayon. Nkt-shirt b namn! E pano kung di pwede walang collar. Katwiran ba naman, meron naman damit dun sa studio. E pano kung wala. Take the chance dw sa prc bka pwede wala collar. Stupid idea d b… Ano ba naman yung magpalit, less hassle d b. in the first place, dpat nakaplan na nakapolo sya. Iaasa nya sa chance. Stupid stupid stupid. At sya pa mainit ang ulo. OA.

- Would u believe na sinabihan ko ng bullshit yung isang staff s prc?

- Simula p lng kasi, pinapagalitan n nla mga tao. E HINDI NGA ALAM ANG GAGAWIN E! Sabi nya sa mic, kmi na nga daw ina-assist nagbu-bullshit pa. Hello! Ano sya volunteer! Trabaho nya kaya yun. Kung may sistema cla eh di mas madali…

- Tip dw. Read brs physio tables on page 3, 14, 35, 40, 43, 55 and receptors page 40.

- Ngbreak kami kunyari and may I iyak iyak in front of ___ and ___. Kakahiya nga eh…Tigas kasi ng ulo namen. Cnabi na nga na wag makikipag-break kasi magboboards. Pero ok na kme. Nsstress lang cguro sa boards.

- Tips sa prevmed exam..read on family medicine. Last yr daw 30questions lumabas from it. Tpos some toxicology questions daw r incorporated in ALL subjects.

- Hay naku, nakaaral ka na ba upper ex ng ana? Nakakaasar sya. Almost whole day ko na inaral ang ulnar median nerve. Tpos bigla sa last part page sa snell, iba na sinasabi. It doesn’t make sense!

- Uy aral ng aral…nakalimutan nyu na me bate…huhu…belated hapi b-day 2 me…. Waaaaah..ang totoxic nyo….cge lng review review… [SORRY TLGA ROMER!]

- Board updates: Memorize myeloproliferative dses, criteria for sle, and criteria for rheumatic heart dse. Pls. pas.

- Review update: review psychpharma, spcly, d antipsychotics, memrize serotonin receptor subtypes, drug rxns & advers effects. Pharma exam is really going to be very hard.

- Waaah! Nakakasuka!

- Waah! Ako din naloloka na!

- ANNOUNCEMENT!Pls pas.. Mga frends, narelease na pala ng PRC yung mga room assignmtss med boards. For the following initials:

A-G: Boracay

H-L: Dakak

M-R: Siargao

S-V: BoholW-Z: Baguio

Woohoo!!!

- Correct ka. Nd tlg kasya s sched. Kht yung 1st aid, hindi ko na alm san isisingit. Hanggang ngayon ng-sasalvage pako ng mga hindi ko p nababasa. Ewan ko n tlga.

- Grbe ako dn! 3 subj backlog ko sa 2nd rdg. Dinadaan ko n lng sa dasal. Kc kalat2 pa sa utak ko yung mga nareview ko.

- And the LORD said “Everything is possible to one who has faith”… (Mark 9:23) God bless you…

- Guys e2 totoong review nap o ahh, tom huh fri as erli as 8am game na tau d2 smen apart sa roof top. I bot monoblock table kc, den may 3 benches tyo..We nid this review tlga….

- Nagconfirm for 2m.. bobsigretz, filing sexymich, hotmama reah, bigbutt bet and longlegged MP [nyeh!]…kitakits bring enaf money so dat fud will overflow.

- Basa lng ng basa! Tpos manuod ng bleach, meteor garden at makinig kay Dave matthews! Winner! God bless!

- PHARMA: anti HIV 15%, CNS 5%, CA drugs 15%, antibacterial 5%, antipsychotic 15%, renal 15%, cardio 15%, the rest derma.

- Attractive ka ba? If no, wag ka na magreply. If yes, i-text mo saken lhat ng enzymes at ang kani-kanilang complete amino acid sequences mula glycolysis, citric acid cycle & electron transport chain. Include political, social, cultural impact on the religious aspect of the humanitarian phenomena..=P

- MP ano nga ulit yung mga amyloid ekek? Ung AA, A beta, etc.?

- MP! Lapit na! super nagccram pko! Hay naku. God bles tlga!

- Dr. Noche chair ng board. Sumali sya sa paggawa ng halos lahat ng subjects. Bka hiyild daw respitract ana, BA, pedia sx,Embryo remnants, immunology – fwd lang

- Hi MP! My gosh! May socy person na nagpakonsulta saken 2nyt. Taga PRC yung asawa! Ndi ko tiningnan bka kasi hindi ako makapagboards. Hehe. Pinaantay ko sa kuya ko..

- Gud am friend!Lapit na ng exam! God bless po! I know ul mke it cz God is behind ol yourefforts. Fight the battle, run d race & keep d faith! Im always with you in prayr! [thanks Cezy=)]

- Ako din im bad with directions nakakaasar nga, ayaw magpapasok. Last thing we want eh magkaligaw-ligaw.

- Lord dis is d big day! D most awaited day since day 1 of r medlyf. Pls bles dis person wd wisdom and ryt judgment. Thank u 4 making 2day a day of triumph! Amen! [thanks jaki! It worked!]

give me a title

2007-05-23T16:46:00.000+08:00

from months of being dormant, eto alive and kicking na ulit. mejo nakaksawa na ang layout ng blog nato. but im too lazy to change it. besides i should be concentrating on a way more important stuff. but anyway, i made i minor, minor change/addition. hulaan nyo. hehe. this life is sooo boring......yet stressful.

looking back, the past year had been so full of losses--material and non-material. it should have been a relaxed, easy one. swabe, sabi nga. but not for me. it was emotionally draining. start na naman ng drama. i guess hindi mo talaga masasabi ang future. dapat talaga, we're prepared no matter what. learn to accept reality. be able to move on. have no regrets. lastly, wear sunscreen.

new year

2007-01-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

you made my new year a little less gloomy... thank you scofield. *sigh*

maybe i've been brainwashed too...

2006-11-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

"Get loud and stand up every time
If you give a f*** about man kind
Cuz if human nature don't evolve soon
Don't kid your-self, you're f***ing doomed
Don't run away from change and growth
Let's start right now, "I take the oath!"
But first accept one simple truth
That maybe you've been brainwashed too
So cynical, so hip, so full of s***, they told us to shut the f*** up and write another hit"
-gregg alexander (maybe you've been brainwashed too, new radicals)

walang pasok yeaH!

2006-07-24T08:59:00.000+08:00

salamat sa SONA!! this is its good side at least. =) forgive me for ranting like a gradeschool student. but who doesnt like holidays?

SONA. government. politics. nothing of interest to me. but it's weird that now i kinda feel concerned about what the president has to say. i started reading the papers daily for the past few days which i never did before. or if i did, only in exchange for a grade in social studies back in high school. anyway, just reading the headlines .. the war between lebanon and israel and our ofw's, the typhoon, mayon volcano and all the political humdrum.. makes me feel sorry for this country. hay, God save my beloved Philippines.

i discovered a new snack. it comes with a dip and it's only 15 pesos. pwede na. but minus the dip, it’s plain harina and asin. nang-okray!

new stuff i'm into right now? Saving. I started by availing of the complimentary food offered by our hospital dietary. sounds yucky for some of my colleagues. But think about not having to go out for lunch and saving about 100 bucks a day. Not bad. With the career im into right now, (that means all work and no pay), saving is my only means of making money for myself. Kawawa ba?

last week i had this huge desire to watch "amelie" again. my yearning won over my being "kuripot". i decided to buy the vcd. but it's out of stock in every video store i went to. so i bought "a very long engagement" instead. it stars the same lead actress and it was just as good. =) i just had to watch it over again. i got a little confused with some of the characters. plus, it was a french movie and subtitles kind of distract me. it was a great movie though. oh! and did i mention Manech was hot?

.............im in some kind of bliss today..... i just love holidays.....

kaPUSA... html kill

2006-04-27T10:07:00.000+08:00

all about our cats

a totally unrelated pic:

you tube!

2006-04-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

*excited*

i have been an absolute bum these past few days. i've only been doing 4 things: eat, sleep, watch tv and surf (the net).

anyway, what i'm excited to show is this video...

this was the sailormoon episode i thought i would never ever see. thanks to youtube.com! sayang nga lang, mas maganda sana kung tagalized. pero ok lang, hindi nako iiyak.

hindi lang yan! i also found 80s cartoons' intros and clips. =) merong thundercats, she-ra, he-man, smurf, and a whole lot more! coolness! youtube is the best!

2006-04-17T16:40:00.001+08:00

This is the multi-awarded movie "Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros". I'm proud to be pinoy!!!

My latest addictions

2006-04-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

yup! balik-blogging na naman ako. just to keep you updated sa aking mga kasalukuyang kinahuhumalingan, eto gumawa ako ng listahan

1. The bloomfields - These guys are extremely talented!!! a band composed of 5 males, 19 to 21 years old who plays mostly 50’s and 60’s rock and roll! The first time I watched them, I instantly became a fan.
2. Ping medina - yup, the son of Mr. Pen Medina. It is not only his remarkable resemblance to his father that amazes me but his talents. *sigh*
3. shoegaze/dreampop music - Daydreamcycle, weedisneys, candyaudioline and the likes
4. fruit shake - ang init kasi… I find melon and watermelon the most refreshing ones.
5. piadina - i just love the pasta!
6. pagkain pa rin!!! - Alimasag, pusit, basta seafood!
7. Hugo series - These are a series of mystery games I played as a child. I love this game even if the graphics are so chaka.

ang pagbabalik ni mary pumpkinhead

2005-05-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

im back! i have been so preoccupied lately that i dont even notice how much time has passed. i forgot a lot of things including a friend's birthday! these past 2 months have been the most exhausting 2 months of my life so far. mind you, i have never cried over being tired. ngayon lang. many times i almost gave up. from the time i became a medical clerk, it has been just hospital and apartment and hospital for me. i havent watched tv, read a book or a magazine or even a newspaper, gone out with friends or gone online. thanks to holidays like this which is the only time i could go home in Laguna and spend a little time on the internet. for 2 months i have been deprived of food, leisure, and sleep most especially. It was sad in the beginning. I may have missed a lot but i would never trade these 2 months for anything. this has been a big learning experience for me physically, mentally and emotionally. along with all these trials, i have been blessed with good people around - a family who has always been there, groupmates who are encouraging, residents/superiors who are inspiring, patients who are touching lives and others who are really so nice to me. i hope i could share my unforgettable and heart-warming encounters with patients. DRAMAchine! =D anyway, all these people are part of the reason why i have managed to survive clerkship. but it has just been 2 months. 10 more months to go. waaaAAAAHHH!

Now Showing

2005-02-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

A Tribute to my favorite movies...

My Sassy Girl

Based on a series of true stories posted by Ho-sik Kim on the Internet describing his relationship with his girlfriend. These were later transformed into a best-selling book and the movie follows the book closely. It describes the meeting of Kyun-woo (Cha) and an unnamed girl. Kyun-woo is shamed into assisting the girl because the other passengers mistakenly think she is his girlfriend. Once he helps her, Kyun-woo develops a deep sense of responsibility for her which enables him to tolerate (somehow) the girls abuses.

Amelie

Amelie is a young Paris waitress who discovers an old box of childhood treasures hidden beneath her apartment floorboards, anonymously returns it to its rightful owner and watches from a distance as his life is transformed by the discovery. Thus begins her odyssey: a series of inventive plans to straighten out other people's lives. Almost as if by magic, Amelie begins to transform the lives of her ordinary neighbors - mostly for the better if they've earned it and occasionally for the worse if they deserve it - but she always hides behind a veil of mystery and anonymity. This works for her until she meets an intriguing young man named Nino. Now the question is: will she have the courage to do for herself what she has done for others?

Happy Gilmore

A would-be hockey player who unfortunately can't skate transforms his slap-shot into a 400-yard golf drive in this slapstick comedy. Joining the pro tour to win enough money to get his grandma's house out of hock, this unsportsmanlike sportsman enrages the staid establishment with his on-course shenanigans.

Y Tu Mama Tambien

Abandoned by their girlfriends for the summer, rich teenagers Tenoch and Julio meet older woman Luisa at a wedding. Trying to impress Luisa, the friends tell her they are headed on a road trip to a beautiful, secret beach called Boca del Cielo (Heaven's Mouth). Intrigued with their story and desperate to escape, Luisa asks if she can join them on their trip. Soon the three are headed out of Mexico City, making their way towards the fictional destination. Along the way Luisa seduces the two young men, and they begin to argue over her. As they continue their journey, caught up in their own world, the wealthy trio all but ignores the harsh realities of poverty that surround them.

50 First Dates

Henry Roth (Sandler), a veterinarian at an aquarium in Hawaii, falls in love with a girl, Lucy (Barrymore), with short-term memory loss, but he has to keep getting her to fall in love with him every time they meet in order for them to have a relationship, since she never remembers the last time she met him.

Bridget Jones’ Diary

At the start of the new year, 32-year-old Bridget decides it's time to take control of her life-and start keeping a diary. Now, the most provocative, erotic and hysterical book on her bedside table is the one she's writing. With a taste for adventure, and an opinion on every subject-from exercise to men to food to sex and everything in between-she's turning the page on a whole new life.

Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason

In this follow-up to the worldwide hit, we find Bridget (Renée Zellweger) where we left her: blissful and besotted in the arms of gorgeous lawyer Mark Darcy (Colin Firth). Mark is accomplished, supportive and tolerant of (nearly) all of Bridget's tiny jealousies; why wouldn't every woman in London, including Mark's new long-legged, drop-dead-gorgeous, I-always-say-the-right-thing-at-all-times intern, want to lure him away from the plumpish, opinionated, sometimes inappropriate Bridget? With the entry of the leggy threat, Bridget's pink clouds begin to turn grey as her attacks of self-doubt sorely test her relationship with Darcy. And just when it seems that the waters couldn't get any more choppy, Bridget's former boss, womanizing heartthrob Daniel Cleaver (Hugh Grant) sails into view.

Kill Bill Vol. 1 and 2

Uma Thurman is going to KILL BILL, in Quentin Tarantino's latest film about a former assassin betrayed by her boss, Bill (David Carradine). Four years after surviving a bullet in the head, the bride (Thurman) emerges from a coma and swears revenge on her former master and his deadly squad of international assassins, played by Lucy Liu, Daryl Hannah, Vivica A. Fox and Michael Madsen.

Mighty Ducks 2

The quack is back, this time invited to the Jr. Goodwill Games to represent the U.S.A. Taking pointers from a street hockey team, they prepare for the toughest challenge of their life.

The Cure

A sensitive 11-year-old boy with AIDS teams up with a teenage rebel to sail down the Mississippi in search of a cure. Their adventure becomes a celebration of life and friendship.

Kissed

Over the years, a child's romantic idea about death transforms into an appetite for necrophilia and embalming. When she gets her dream job in a mortuary, she meets a man who is intrigued by her 'flirtations' with death. Lynn Stopkewich's Canadian production was nominated for several awards on the 1997 festival circuit.

The Lion King

Wild Africa is the setting for this animated tale of a young lion cub whose evil uncle usurps his father's crown and lets hyenas overrun the kingdom. Dodging danger and befriending some oddball characters, the cub wanders until the day he's ready to return. Songs by Elton John and featuring the voices of Whoopie Goldberg, Cheech Marin, James Earl Jones, Matthew Broderick, Nathan Lane and Jeremy Irons. Academy Award Nominations: 4, including 3 for Best Original Song. Academy Awards: 2, including Best Original Score and Best Original Song (Elton John and Tim Rice: "Can You Feel the Love Tonight").

Major Payne

Wayans plays a near-maniacal Army Major assigned to whip a detail of dysfunctional children into shape to win a war games competition, making for some hilarious moments of truly inspired lunacy. Remake of the 1955 movie "The Private War of Major Benson" starring Charlton Heston.

Cruel Intentions

Director Roger Kumble transfers the DANGEROUS LIASONS tale to Manhattan, where wealthy prep school student Kathryn (Sarah Michelle Gellar) bets her stepbrother Sebastian (Ryan Phillipe) that he can't deflower the virginal Annette (Reese Witherspoon) before the school year begins. If he fails to accomplish this task, Kathryn gets his Jaguar Roadster; if he succeeds, he gets an evening of pleasure with Kathryn.

Mirror Mirror

As the shy, new girl at school, Megan is constantly hassled by the cheerleader group. After she discovers an unusual mirror in her house, Megan's enemies at school start showing up dead.

School of Rock

Fired from his band, rock guitarist and vocalist Dewey Finn (Black) takes a job as a 4th grade substitute teacher at an uptight private school where his free livin' lifestyle, attitude, music and antics soon influences the students to explore other sides of themselves the school doesn't encourage. Finn's real goal in taking the job is to recruit a 9-year-old guitar prodigy, Yuki, to become the lead guitarist in a band that would be able to win a "battle of bands", solving Finn's money problems and re-establishing him as a respected rocker.

Dead Poets Society

An unconventional New England prep school teacher inspires his students with poetry and encourages them to embrace life. Academy Award Nominations: 4, including Best Picture, Best Actor--Robin Williams, Best (Original) Screenplay. Academy Awards: Best Original Screenplay.

The Baby-sitters Club

Friendship, secrets and prepubescent enterprise: The book series for girls comes to the screen with sweetness and morality and some pretty good performances. With Schuyler Fisk, Bre Blair, Rachael Leigh Cook, Brooke Adams, Peter Horton. Screenplay by Dalene Young, based on the books by Ann M. Martin. Directed by Melanie Mayron.

My Girl

Vada Sultenfuss (Anna Chlumsky) is an eleven year old girl in a small Pennsylvania town in the early 1970s, at the beginning of life even as she lives with the constant reminder of death; her father (Dan Ackroyd) is a mortician who runs his business out of the family home, and her mother died during childbirth complications. The father and daughter also live with Vada's grandmother, who suffers from Alzheimers and whose only vocalizations are belted-out showtunes from her youth. This life story, paired with Ada's precocious and imaginative mind, makes for some highly entertaining and eminently human eccentricities; a hypochondriac, Vada is a regular patron of her family doctor, constantly convinced that she is suffering from some obscure and fatal illness. Her best friend is Thomas J. (Mackaulay Culkin), a wide-eyed naif to whom she tells all her thoughts, fears, and dreams, including her romantic interest in her English teacher (Griffin Dunne) and her reservations regarding Shelly (Jamie Lee Curtis), her father's newly-employed makeup artist and love interest. Vada's world is eventually turned upside down when tragedy strikes, and she is forced to do some growing up along the way.

Untamed Heart

A tender tale about the romance between Adam, a severely introverted busboy with a congenital heart problem and Caroline, a waitress with a penchant for men who reject her. Walking home late one night from the Minneapolis diner where she and Adam work, Caroline is attacked by two thugs. Just as they are about to rape her, Adam miraculously appears and beats the living daylights out of the two guys. To her surprise, Caroline discovers that the shy, silent Adam has been infatuated with her from afar and has even followed her home every night to make sure nothing happens to her along the way. Won over by his sweetness and devotion, Caroline enters into a tentative relationship with Adam, gently guiding him through his first experience with physical and emotional intimacy.

Edward Scissorhands

In Tim Burton's EDWARD SCISSORHANDS, a suburban fairy tale with incredibly imaginative sets, an Avon lady, Peg Boggs (Dianne Wiest), discovers the half-finished experiment--a man/monster named Edward (Johnny Depp)--of a mad scientist (played magically by Vincent Price) living in the neighborhood's old abandoned castle. The scientist died before replacing the shy man's large shears with real hands. When Peg attempts to bring Edward into her suburban world, to live among her skeptical family (husband Alan Arkin and daughter Winona Ryder) and gossipy neighbors, his hands--dangerous yet capable of creating things of great beauty--make for some awkward, funny, and poignant situations: Edward as a topiary gardener, Edward as a cutting-edge hair stylist. EDWARD SCISSORHANDS is a story about tolerance, difference, and creativity as much as it is a story of a young man's coming of age (the young man in question is, of course, a monster). In the ironically surreal world of Edward's suburban community, he must try to find his place in it, and in the world at large.

A League of Their Own

In 1943 when the ranks of professional male baseball players were leaving for the war, a group of ladies left their homes to become part of the All-American Girls Professional Baseball League and kept baseball alive for a grateful nation. This is their story. Dottie Hinson (Geena Davis) is the team's most gifted player,and the camaraderie and jealousy with her sister (Lori Petty) is part of this film's charm and complexity. Jimmy Dugan (Tom Hanks) is the drunken ex-player and slob manager who eventually brings the team to success. Directed by Penny Marshall (BIG, AWAKENINGS) and also starring Madonna, Jon Lovitz and Bill Pullman.

The Others

THE OTHERS begins with a close-up of a woman screaming. By the time this intense film ends, everyone watching it will be screaming and gasping. Nicole Kidman stars as Grace, a woman raising two children by herself in a creepy mansion. World War II is over, but Grace's husband never returned. Meanwhile, the two children, Anne and Nicholas, must constantly stay in the dark because they are deathly allergic to light. Then one day three people show up to take over for Grace's disappeared staff, and trouble starts to brew. The odd trio--an aging nanny, an elderly gardener, and a young mute girl--seems to have a slightly different agenda than Grace and the children do. But when Anne starts talking to strange, unseen people, the scares start building to an incredible climax.

The Professional

Leon (Jean Reno) is a precise, calculating hit man--a consummate professional, with no family and no friends. However, he has casually befriended Mathilda (Natalie Portman, in an auspicious debut), a 12 year-old neighbor whose entire family, including her adored 4-year-old brother, is wiped out by some crooked DEA agents. The girl pleads with Leon to teach her how to be a "cleaner" and avenge her little brother's death. However, once she learns a few skills, Mathilda saunters into the DEA offices with the sole intention of killing the psychotic agent (Gary Oldman) who actually masterminded the executions. But her intended victim turns the tables on her, and Leon must rescue her. LEON was French director Luc Besson's first film shot in America.

Now and Then

Four women who have been friends since childhood reunite when one of them is about to give birth. This gives them the chance to reminisce about the summer of 1970, a time when they first experienced puppy love, shared girlish secrets, discussed sex and boys, battled bullies, and attempted to solve a murder mystery. The strong bonds these young women forged back then endured despite the passing years and their different fates. Now they have the chance to reaffirm that powerful friendship on a joyous, special occasion.

Lord of the Rings

Set in mythic Middle Earth, a young hobbit named Frodo Baggins inherits a magic ring from his elderly cousin Bilbo. The dark Lord Sauron lusts for the powers that the magic ring holds, knowing it will enable him to enslave the people of land. In his effort to thwart Sauron, Frodo recruits the fellowship of a wizard, an elf, a dwarf and others on a mission to destroy the ring by casting it into the volcanic fires in the Crack of Doom. However, the ring unleashes its own power as a result of the struggle....

The Fifth Element

A cab driver in the 23rd century finds himself battling an evil force during an apocalyptic war as he tries to secure a mysterious fifth element.

(Note: Plots are taken from IMDb and yahoo movies)

to my readers (if there really are)

2005-01-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

Hey! okay let me change "readers" to "visitors". i know the former is too much of a dream for me. besides, there's really nothing much to read in here. anyway, i'd like to know who my visitors are. i would greatly appreciate it if you could answer these questions for me. you could copy and paste these on the comments box (just click on the "comments" link below this post). Thanks, have a great day!

mary pumpkinhead =)

about you...
1. name/nickname/codename?

2. age?

3. location?

4. likes?

5. dislikes?

about this blog...
6. what brought you here?

7. what do you like/hate about this page?

5. any comments/suggestions/violent reactions? (anything goes...this is your freedom wall =) )

Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

Ta me air meisce
Ta me air meisce - 'I am drunk.'You enjoy a drink - or five - now and then. You can usually be found in a pub - it doesn't matter which one, because they all look the same after a few drinks - or hugging the porcelain.

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

2005-01-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

read this! better if you can hear the song itself.

Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99...If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen…

my precious literary compilation

2005-01-01T15:29:00.000+08:00

here is a compilation of literary pieces that i took up in high school until college. unfortunately, it was only during 3rd year college when i truly, truly appreciated reading poetry, short stories, etc. Thanks to our Humanities teacher then. =)

SHORT STORIES

Snow by Garrison Keillor

Excerpt from Brave New World Aldous Huxley

How by Lorrie Moore

Hills Like White Elephants by Ernest Hemingway

A Clean Well-lighted Place by Ernest Hemingway

Scoring by Joy Dayrit

A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Snow, Glass, Apples by Neil Gaiman

Fire Trees and Orange Sundays by Caroline Hau

The Use of Force by William Carlos Williams

Flight by Kerima Polotan-Tuvera

Fall of the House of Usher by Edgar Allan Poe

The Cask of Amontillado by Edgar Allan Poe

The Necklace by Guy de Maupassant

The Piece of String by Guy de Maupassant

Moonlight by Guy de Maupassant

Wee Willie Winkie by Rudyard Kipling

The Blue Cross by G. K. Chesterton

The Rocking-horse Winner by D. H. Lawrence

The Wall by Jean Paul Sartre

The Third Ingredient by O. Henry

Appointment with Loveby Sulamith Ish-Kishor

The Lottery by Shirley Jackson

The God Stealers by F. Sionil Jose

Impeng Negro by Rogelio Sicat

Dead Stars by Paz Marquez Benitez

God Sees the Truth But Waits by Leo Tolstoy

The Prodigal Son

The Story of Ruth from the Old Testament

POEMS

Snow White and the Seven Dwarves by Anne Sexton (Other poems by Anne Sexton - Briar Rose, Rapunzel, Cinderella)

Two-Headed Calf
LAURA GILPIN

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Dover Beach
MATTHEW ARNOLD

The sea is calm tonight,
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Come to the window, sweet is the night air!
Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.
Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the Agean, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.
The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.
Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

1867

Pantoum: The Comfort Woman
BINO A. REALUYO

Monsoon country, so expectedly, wind uproots memory.
Rain is the voice of a storyteller, one without pause
like my nightly return to the hundred days of bulb light
and curtains, laughter and weight of soldiers outside, lined up.
Rain, tell me the story once again; mine, don’t pause--
sounds of belts unbuckle, dawn; blood gorges to a rush downward.
Let me weigh their laughter one by one, past rooms of curtains,
where my body tilts, reaching out, upward, tied to a post
with a belt, the dawn of memory, the rush of sound:
"Tanaka--," I scream. My husband awakens, "Who is he--Tanaka?"
My body tilts upward, reaching you, untying a dream.
Tanaka, my dear, he and the darkness are one, always waiting
and awake, a whisper at night, a husband to his wife, a soldier
to me, a Japanese soldier without a choice, breathing through limbs.
Tanaka in the darkness was as dear as the wait to escape.
Tanaka in the morning was as cruel as the smell of his peers,
these Japanese whose choices were my limbs, mouth and breath.
I never told you, my dear, that every night, I leave my hands beside you
to carry the rest back to the cruelty of their smell, of their mornings:
nine months of war in this hut, my body as food, my life as nothing.
If I tell you how it was, will you hold my hands, surrender to memory?
Soon I will disappear, running naked in a hut, pursued by ropes, shadows.
Nine months: a war for the rest of my life, for the rest of nothing,
telling the rain, the wind, voices of storytellers, ones without pause,
how I disappeared to be naked as rope, naked as its shadow,
in this hut of fears, hands limp and tied, slipping into thoughts;
I told the rain to carry my voice, the wind to hold it without pause.
Now, in my monsoon country, so expectedly, wind uproots memory.

Immigrants
PAT MORA

wrap their babies in the American flag,
feed them mashed hot dogs and apple pie,
name them Bill and Daisy,
buy them blonde dolls that blink blue
eyes or a football and tiny cleats
before the baby can even walk,
speak to them in thick English,
hallo, babee, hallo,
whisper in Spanish or Polish
when the babies sleep, whisper
in a dark parent bed, that dark
parent fear, “Will they like
our boy, our girl, our fine American
boy, our fine American girl?”

Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening
ROBERT FROST

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Fire and Ice
ROBERT FROST

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
>From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

All Because You Kissed Me Goodnight

I ran up the door, closed the stairs,
Said my pajamas and put on my prayers.
I shut off the bed and hopped into the light
All because you kissed me goodnight.

Next morning I woke up and scrambled my shoes,
Read the eggs and toasted the news.
I couldn't tell my left from my right,
All because you kissed me goodnight.

That evening at last
I felt normal again,
So I picked up my mom
and called the phone,
Spoke to the dog
and tossed Dad a bone.

Even at midnight...
the sun was still bright,
All because
....you kissed me goodnight.

Song
CHRISTINA GEORGINA ROSSETTI

When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet;
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.

I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
Sing on as if in pain:
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember,
And haply may forget.

SONNET 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

SONNET 29

When, in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possess'd,
Desiring this man's art and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate;
For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.

XLIII (How Do I Love Thee)
ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

The Passionate Shepherd to His Love
CHRISTOPHER MARLOWE

Come live with me and be my love,
And we will all the pleasures prove
That valleys, groves, hills, and fields,
Woods or steepy mountain yields.

And we will sit upon the rocks,
Seeing the shepherds feed their flocks,
By shallow rivers to whose falls
Melodious birds sing madrigals.

And I will make thee beds of roses
And a thousand fragrant posies,
A cap of flowers, and a kirtle
Embroidered all with leaves of myrtle;

A gown made of the finest wool
Which from our pretty lambs we pull;
Fair lined slippers for the cold,
With buckles of th purest gold;

A belt of straw and ivy buds,
With coral clasps and amber studs:
And if these pleasures may thee move,
Come live with me and be my love.

The shepherds' swains shall dance and sing
For thy delight each May morning:
If these delights thy mind may move,
Then live with me and be my love.

The nymph's reply to the shepherd
SIR WALTER RALEIGH

If all the world and love were young,
And truth in every shepherd's tongue,
These pretty pleasures might me move
To live with thee and be thy love.

Time drives the flocks from field to fold
When rivers rage and rocks grow cold,
And Philomel becometh dumb;
The rest complains of cares to come.

The flowers do fade, and wanton fields
To wayward winter reckoning yields;
A honey tongue, a heart of gall,
Is fancy's spring, but sorrow's fall.

The gowns, thy shoes, thy beds of roses,
Thy cap, thy kirtle, and thy posies
Soon break, soon wither, soon forgotten,—
In folly ripe, in reason rotten.

Thy belt of straw and ivy buds,
Thy coral clasps and amber studs,
All these in me no means can move
To come to thee and be thy love.

But could youth last and love still breed,
Had joys no date nor age no need,
Then these delights my mind might move
To live with thee and be thy love.

I Arise From Dreams of Thee
PERCY BYSSHE SHELLEY

I arise from dreams of thee
In the first sweet sleep of night
When the winds are breathing low
And the stars are shining bright.

I arise from dreams of thee
And a spirit in my feet
Has led me -- who knows how? --
To thy chamber window, sweet.

The wandering airs, they faint
On the dark, the silent stream,
The champak odors fall
Like sweet thoughts in a dream.

The nightingales complaint,
It dies upon her breast,
As I must die on thine,
Oh, beloved as thou art.

Oh, lift me from the grass!
I die, I faint, I fail!
Let thy love in kisses rain
On my lips and eye-lids pale;

My cheek is cold and white, alas,
My heart beats loud and fast.
Oh press it close to thine again
Where it will break at last.

Song to Celia
BEN JONSON

Drink to me, only with thine eyes,
And I will pledge with mine ;
Or leave a kiss but in the cup,
And I'll not look for wine.
The thirst, that from the soul doth rise, 5
Doth ask a drink divine :
But might I of Jove's nectar sup,
I would not change for thine.

I sent thee late a rosy wreath,
Not so much honoring thee, 10
As giving it a hope, that there
It could not wither'd be.
But thou thereon didst only breathe,
And sent'st it back to me :
Since when it grows, and smells, I swear, 15
Not of itself, but thee.

On his blindness
JOHN MILTON (1608-1674)

When I consider how my light is spent,
Ere half my days, in this dark world and wide,
And that one talent which is death to hide,
Lodged with me useless, though my soul more bent
To serve therewith my maker, and present
My true account, lest he returning chide,
Doth God exact day-labour, light denied?
I fondly ask; but Patience to prevent
That murmur, soon replies, God doth not need
Either man's work or his own gifts, who best
Bear his mild yoke, they serve him best, his state
Is kingly. Thousands at his bidding speed
And post o'er land and ocean without rest:
They also serve who only stand and wait.

To the Virgins to Make Much of Time
ROBERT HERRICK

GATHER ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old time is still a-flying :
And this same flower that smiles to-day
To-morrow will be dying.

The glorious lamp of heaven, the sun,
The higher he's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he's to setting.

That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer ;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.

Then be not coy, but use your time,
And while ye may go marry :
For having lost but once your prime
You may for ever tarry.

A Red, Red Rose
ROBERT BURNS

O my luve's like a red, red rose
That's newly sprung in June;
O mu luve's like the melodie
That's sweetly play'd in tune.

As fair art thou, my bonie lass,
So deep in luve am I;
And I will luve thee still, my dear,
Till a' the seas gang dry.

Till a' the seas gang dry, my dear,
And the rocks melt wi' the sun;
O I will luve thee still, my dear
While the sands o' life shall run.

And fare-thee-weel, my only Luve!
And fare-thee-weel awhile!
And I will come again, my luve,
Tho' 'twere ten thousand miles.

O my luve's like a red, red rose,
That's newly sprung in June;
O my luve's like the melodie
That's sweetly play'd in tune.

She Walks in Beauty
LORD GEORGE GORDON BYRON

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.

And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!

Invictus
WILLIAM ERNEST HENLEY (1849–1903)

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Shylock’s Speech
from the Merchant of Venice by SHAKESPEARE

To bait fish withal: if it will feed nothing else,
it will feed my revenge. He hath disgraced me, and
hindered me half a million; laughed at my losses,
mocked at my gains, scorned my nation, thwarted my
bargains, cooled my friends, heated mine
enemies; and what's his reason? I am a Jew. Hath
not a Jew eyes? hath not a Jew hands, organs,
dimensions, senses, affections, passions? fed with
the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject
to the same diseases, healed by the same means,
warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer, as
a Christian is? If you prick us, do we not bleed?
if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison
us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not
revenge? If we are like you in the rest, we will
resemble you in that. If a Jew wrong a Christian,
what is his humility? Revenge. If a Christian
wrong a Jew, what should his sufferance be by
Christian example? Why, revenge. The villany you
teach me, I will execute, and it shall go hard but I
will better the instruction.

Portia’s Speech
from The Merchant of Venice by SHAKESPEARE

The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven,
Upon the place beneath.
It is twice blessed.
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
It is mightiest in the mightiest,
It becomes the throned monarch better than his crown.
His sceptre shows the force of temporal power,
An attribute to awe and majesty.
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings.
But mercy is above this sceptred sway,
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings,
It is an attribute to God himself.
And earthly power doth then show likest God's,
Where mercy seasons justice.

The Balcony Scene
from Romeo and Juliet BY SHAKESPEARE

[Capulet's orchard.]
ROMEO [Coming forward.]:
But soft! What light through yonder window breaks?
It is the East, and Juliet is the sun!
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon
Who is already sick and pale with grief
That thou her maid art far more fair than she.
Be not her maid, since she is envious.
Her vestal livery is but sick and green,
And none but fools do wear it. Cast it off.
It is my lady! O, it is my love!
O, that she knew she were!
She speaks, yet she says nothing.
What of that? Her eye discourses; I will answer it.
I am too bold; 'tis not to me she speaks.
Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven
Having some business, do entreat her eyes
To twinkle in their spheres till they return.
What if her eyes were there, they in her head?
The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars
As daylight doth a lamp; her eyes in heaven
Would through the airy region stream so bright
That birds would sing and think it were not night.
See how she leans her cheek upon her hand!
O, that I were a glove upon that hand,
That I might touch that cheek!

JULIET :
Ay me!

ROMEO:
She speaks.
O, speak again, bright angel, for thou art
As glorious to this night, being o'er my head,
As is a winged messenger of heaven
Unto the white-upturned wond'ring eyes
Of mortals that fall back to gaze on him
When he bestrides the lazy puffing clouds
And sails upon the bosom of the air.

JULIET:
O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name;
Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,
And I'll no longer be a Capulet.

ROMEO [Aside.]:
Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this?

JULIET:
'Tis but thy name that is my enemy.
Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.
What's Montague? It is nor hand, nor foot,
Nor arm, nor face. O, be some other name
Belonging to a man.
What's in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other word would smell as sweet.
So Romeo would, were he not Romeo called,
Retain that dear perfection which he owes
Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name;
And for thy name, which is no part of thee,
Take all myself.

KonG hEi Fat CHoY!!!!

2004-12-31T18:18:00.000+08:00

twenty-o-four

2004-12-29T09:37:00.001+08:00

As a year-ender article, I’d like to make a list of my accomplishments this year. These may be ordinary or mababaw for some but being the homebuddy that I am plus the fact that I am engaged with a demanding career, I consider these accomplishments already. Besides, I’m happy with simple things in life. So here goes…

my accomplishments this year:
- Seeing Cynthia Alexander perform live (Hardrock Café Makati, Jan 2004)
as proof...
- Being part of 2 medical missions (one in Cavite and the other in Laguna)
- Having been to Island Cove w/ my friends
- Spending 3 days in Baguio during the summer vacation (May 2004)
- Getting back in touch with long lost friends (How long is long? Imagine 15 years.)
- Having witnessed the Venusian transit. (I think there’s a previous article on this)
- Having been to the Alicia Keys World Tour concert.
- Having seen pinoy bands perform live on several occasions. (Marty McFly, Kamikazee, Sandwich, Imago, Neruda, Sugarfree, Chicosci, Spongecola, Moonstar88, MYMP, Join the Club and Bamboo to name some)
- Going to FullCup twice.
- Having joined youth camps and fellowships.

Hmm… what else? I may have missed a lot because I don’t really document everything. But these are this year’s highlights I guess.

bamboo

2004-12-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

IRA CRUZ!

from quiz blog to lyrics blog

2004-08-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

Nirvana
All Apologies

What else should i be
All apologies
What else should i say
Everyone is gay
What else could i write
I don't have the right
What else should i be
All apologies

In the sun _ in the sun i feel as one
In the sun - in the sun
I'm married
Buried

I wish i was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sun burn with freezerburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemies
In the sun - in the sun i feel as one
In the sun - in the sun
I'm married
Buried
Married
Buried
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
All in all is all we all are

Natalie Merchant
Jealousy

O, jealousy
is she fine
so well bred
the perfect girl
a social deb?
is she the sort
you've always thought
could make you
what you're not?

o, jealousy
is she bright
so well read
are there novels
by her bed?
is she the sort
you've always said
could satisfy your head?

o, my jealousy
does she talk
the way I do
is her voice reminding you
of the promises
the little white lies too
sometimes, tell me
while she's touching you
just by mistake
accidently do you say my name

Nirvana
Smells Like Teen Spirit
Load up on guns, bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's overboard and self-assured
I know, i know , a dirty word

Hello, hello , hello how low,
Hello, hello, hello,how low,
Hello, hello, hello...

With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid, and contagious
Here we are now , entertain us
A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido,
Yeah

I'm worse at what I do best
And for that gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello, hello, hello, how low
Hello, hello, hello, how low
Hello, hello, hello

And i forget just why i taste
Oh yeah, i guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it's hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Hello, hello, hello, how low
Hello, hello, hello, how low
Hello, hello, hello
With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contageous
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido,

A denial (x9)

Goodnight moon
SHIVAREE

There's a nail in the door
And there's glass on the lawn
Tacks on the floorAnd the TV is on
And I always sleep with my guns
When you're gone
There's a blade by the bed
And a phone in my hand
A dog on the floor
And some cash on the nightstand
When I'm all alone the dreaming stops
And I just can't stand

What should I do I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out and maybe
And then the wind just starts to moan
Outside the door he followed me home
Well goodnight moon
I want the sun
If it's not here soonI might be done
No it won't be too soon 'til I say
Goodnight moon

There's a shark in the pool
And a witch in the tree
A crazy old neighbour and he's been watching me
And there's footsteps loud and strong coming down the hall
Something's under the bed
Now it's out in the hedge
There's a big black crow sitting on my window ledge
And I hear something scratching through the wall

Oh what should I do I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out and maybe
I just hate to be all alone
Outside the door he followed me home
Now goodnight moonI want the sun
If it's not here soonI might be done
No it won't be too soon 'til I say
Goodnight moon
Well you're up so high
How can you save me
When the dark comes here
Tonight to take me up
To my front walk
And into bed where it kisses my face
And eats my head

Oh what should I do I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out and maybe
And then the wind just starts to moan
Outside the door he followed me home
Now goodnight moonI want the sunIf it's not here soon
I might be done
No it won't be too soon 'til I say
Goodnight moon
No it won't be too soon 'til I say
Goodnight moon

my wish list...

2004-07-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

1. iPOD... errr perhaps a nice pair of headphones will do
2. Cynthia ALexander - Ripping Yarns album (been wanting this for a long time)
3. The Darkness Album (im into 80s music right now... this pretty much sounds like one)
4. Kill Bill Volume II OST (I loved the soundtrack as much as i loved the movie!!)
... all music related except for this one:
5. Harrison's Principles of Internal Med Textbook 16th ed (a forced wish)

wish granted... not until it's my turn to make sweldo from our paluwagan har har har... so i'll just be drooling for now. arghhhhh!!!

para kay Led ng kamikazee

2004-07-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

i was at the tribute to eraserheads at mayric's last night. kamikazee was there and Led! you really caught my attention. ganda ng kamay mo! hindi ako nakatulog kagabi... galing nyo! LED!!! kung nababasa mo to, mag-post ka naman!

2004-06-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

i dont have a favorite band in particular. i'm actually on a "per-song" basis
when it comes to my favorite music. but i like most incubus songs so that makes incubus my favorite band. what the heck!?!

You are Stellar

-What Incubus Song are You?-
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well speaking of stellar... i forgot to write about my venusian transit experience last june 8. i actually marked my calendar 1 month before (what a freak i am!) and it so happened that my uncle had this welding mask. i wasn't expecting to see the transit but i still tried and voila! i saw this tiny black dot on the sun around 5 in the afternoon. it was an overwhelming site for me. (**,)

UCAUTION

IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP MARYPUMPKINHEAD AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.

From Go-Quiz.com

M	Modern
A	Arty
R	Refreshing
Y	Yummy

P	Peaceful
U	Unusual
M	Masculine
P	Pure
K	Keen
I	Important
N	Noisy
H	Haunting
E	Emotional
A	Amorous
D	Dysfunctional

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

more quizzes

2004-06-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

i'm a sucker for online quizzes!! Sheesh! My journal is turning into a quiz blog!!!

Scary in a very good way, you're Fairuza Balk.
Intense.

What sexy girl are you
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-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Congratulations! You have an understanding of the
goth culture!

A True Goth Quiz (now with pics)
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You're a Velvety-Mopey-Goth! You're wardrobe isn't
condusive to heat, water, or the natural range
of human movement. People may think you're
cheesy, but you know it's just because their
infantile minds can't fully comprehend the
insurmountable anguish of your existence.

What kind of Goth would you be?
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No one would really know your name. You would be
called by what you do. For example, if you burn
your victims to death all the time, you would
be known as The Arsonist, or if you knife them,
you would be known as The Slasher. You would be
the mysterious killer who strikes at sporadic
times, and would be very difficult to catch.
You might dress up and mask yourself when you
perform your horrible killings. Your identity
would really be a mystery. Obviously you would
be wanted all over the place, and authorities
would desperately try to capture you. Even if
you were caught, you would not say much. The
public would greatly fear you because you could
just strike unexpectedly.

What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The
Rapture.

"I go where my heart beckons me, and I go
with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need
until I bleed so my heart swims above my
head."

The Burning Rose is associated with passion,
intensity, and desire. It is governed by the
god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical
Love.

As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment
if you let yourself. You are a very physical
person, be it in relationships, work, or play.
You may be driven by your hormones sometimes,
but you know it's because you have to follow
your instinct.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Super!! You are WILLEM DE KOONING.
You think just like you paint: in the abstract. You
live well outside of the box and never know
where life will take you next. Your friends
admire your ability to fearlessly veer away
from the boundaries of society.

Which famous artist most reflects your personality?
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You are a BONE SAW!

This hand saw is rarely used today, most often by
pathologists who fear infection from aerosols
thrown up by the much more vigorous vibrating
saw. The hand saw can be used to saw through
the skull, but it's very slow-going compared to
the vibrating saw.
More morbid fun at ViG Forums:
http://thanatos.net/forum

Autopsy Tools and You, a Morbid Primer
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href="http://www.catwalkqueen.net">What's You Designer Style?

You like to be understated, neutral and classic, but when the red carpet rolls out, you know how to put on the ritz. Your look is distinctively American, but too sophisticated to be deemed preppy. Your perfect designer is Ralph Lauren. This label is, despite it's Spanish spokesmodel, Penelope Cruz, completely all American and boasts devoted fans like Gwyneth Paltrow and Jennifer Aniston. Lauren was even responsible for *that* pink Oscar gown, and *that* black handkerchief top. You're in good company with this designer!

I did it in 8 seconds.
I deserved an A+!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

You are 'Hark! The Herald Angels Sing'. You take
Christmas very seriously. For you, it is a
religious festival, celebrating the birth of
the Saviour, and its current secularisation
really irritates you. You enjoy the period of
Advent leading up to Christmas, and attend any
local carol services you can find, as well as
the more contemplative Advent church services
each Sunday. You may be involved in Christmas
food collections or similar charity work. The
midnight service at your church, with candles
and carols, is one you look forward to all
year, and you also look forward to the family
get together on Christmas Day.

What Christmas Carol are you?
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you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.

which happy bunny are you?
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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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The Count's Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder [i thought so!!! - mary]

It started with a simple affection for counting and
the terror it induced in others, didn't it?
But now it's turned into a full-blown
life-consuming chaotic nightmare of order,
repetition, zealousness, and perfectionism.
You used to be so grand, but now you find
yourself obsessively worrying over the littlest
things--like, maybe if you don't check the
light switch at least once every two minutes,
the electricity will go out (and damnit, you're
a vampire--that shouldn't be a problem!), or
maybe if you don't wash your hands until your
seams are coming out, you'll get some fatal
disease. Get yourself some treatment.

Which Sesame Street Muppet's Dark Secret Are You?
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of cravings and calories

2004-06-10T09:51:00.000+08:00

My craving for Wendy’s mozzarella supreme just ended yesterday lunch. Well, it was good, the chicken was crispy and real (not like other processed chicken products or chicken nuggets if you know what I mean), the parmesan sauce was delicious, but the meal was not worth my 89 pesos. The mozzarella was barely there. Not only that there was too little mozzarella on it pero medyo hindi ko naramdaman yung mozzarella, nasapawan kasi sya ibang flavor. In other words, the chicken supreme would do even without the mozzarella.

Anyway, later that night my dad brought me a pasalubong and guess what it was… it was a hamburger from burger king! Wala lang. I just thought that I had way more than my daily caloric requirement yesterday. Hehe toxic! I even had a huge serving of mashed potato for merienda. Trivia: Did you know that an average person is only required to take in about 2000 cal per day or less? And the amount of calories a hamburger contains is already about 700?! That means 3 hamburgers are more than enough to sustain a day’s caloric requirement. I am even skinnier than the average person, meaning my requirement is even smaller. Well, that wasn’t bad at all for someone who’s trying to gain weight. =D

Grrrr!@?!

2004-06-04T10:26:00.000+08:00

I get really annoyed with sudden rush of LOUD people.

Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
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Suicide! (and you know it, so... dont u have
something to do?)

Choose your Dramatic Death (Now w/pics!!)
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...

2004-06-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

these are some interesting sites i came across my online expedition...

anomalies-unlimited - this site features odd pics, ghosts, history of michael jackson's face, the dark side of disney and a whole lotta weird stuff!

attentionspanradio - if you're tired of the usual stuff you hear; features jazz/funk/rock music. aw!

space - a cosmic experience

...more to come!

Lasombra--
Turning their backs upon the humans they once were,
Lasombra give themselves wholly over to the
dark majesty of the Embrace. Murder, frenzy,
predation: Why fear these things, many Lasombra
ask, if one is meant to be a vampire?

Vampires want you... which ones hunt you?
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quiz addict

2004-06-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

You belong with Johnny Depp! You dig the tortured
pretty boy look and great body. Enjoy his fun
and adventurous personality, hot looks, and
every now and then english accent.

What hot guy do you belong with?
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You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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You are going to Marry Colin Farell. He is crazy
and often drunk, but he is capable of being
sweet. He is very mysterious and cute.
Congrats!

Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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Aphrodite/Eros

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Faerie:
Faeries are sweet loving beings who love to help
people. They are not held back by reality and
love to dream and fly around. You probably are
very creative and although not the most popular
person in the world you are probably loved by
many for your sweet caring personality.

What Mythological Creature Are You (Many Results and Beautiful Pics)
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Raver Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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gag reflex

2004-05-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

It was only yesterday that i saw the controversial nick berg execution video. i was expecting to see the head cut off with just a single blow perhaps by something like a samurai sword but i saw a nastier sight instead. A large knife was used to slit the neck and saw the head off. I really felt like throwing up not because i found it gross but because the feeling was as contagious as when i watch someone yawn. I had this problem since i was young when my relatives would offer us live chicken during fiestas (that's what they do in the province). We kids would watch those chickens as they are being slaughtered and i gag at the sight of slitting the chicken's neck. I thought i had overcome this problem during our cooking class in highschool wherein we had to slaughter chickens ourselves. I even killed 4 chickens. I was wrong. i still have this easily stimulated gag reflex. in fact, i feel sick now by just thinking about it!

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy

You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on

You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time.

Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity!

Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
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2004-05-27T13:34:00.000+08:00

This morning I woke up in the middle of a dream about our old house. It's not an old, ancient house. What i meant is a house we left several years ago due to financial matters. Anyhow, this house in my dream was in an unfamiliar place where there was fake snow (it wasn't styrofoam) all around and several kids here and there. From the outside, it didn’t look like our former house at all and I didn’t have an inkling that it was it. Then I saw a kid open the door and I curiously went inside. Before I knew it, I was standing inside of our old house and it felt like I just got home from school. Everything still looks the same although I knew that there were new residents already. I impatiently went to my room. I even tripped because I was in such a hurry. Knowing that someone else has already been occupying my room, I hesitantly took a peek inside. I saw that my room was more or less still the same except that the closet was removed and there are a few add-ons such as a table. The wallpaper was still as good as new. Then, I went to see the master’s bedroom and in front of the door, I was blocked by a man probably in his late twenties who looks like he just got off from a shower. He doesn’t even have a shirt. Weird. Well, it was a dream after all. Anyway, I went outside only to see what looks like an abandoned garden. And then I woke up and the dream left me a feeling of great longing for that old house of ours especially for my room. That room wasn’t simply a room for me. It had become my "cradle" at the lowest point of my life where the hassles of adolescence, financial and family problems felt like this huge baggage I had to carry alone. In the middle of all those crises, my room somehow gave me a sense of security and peace of mind. But then time came when we had to give up the house and move out. Although moving out really felt bad, it wasn’t so hard to recover from the grief. One reason is we moved back to the house where I grew up as a child which is not so nakakapanibago after all. We gradually recovered financially and maybe that experience only taught us that material things aren’t that important. Even if we lost our house, our car, some properties, we realized that we still have our family and a place to call home.

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2004-05-26T14:21:00.001+08:00

Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless. Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless. Little white flowers will never awaken you, not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you. Angels have no thought of ever returning you. Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?

Gloomy Sunday.

Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all. My heart and I have decided to end it all. Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad, I know. But let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go. Death is no dream, for in death I'm caressing you. With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you.

Gloomy Sunday.

Dreaming, I was only dreaming. I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, dear. Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you. My heart is telling you how much I wanted you.

Gloomy Sunday.

red letter day

2004-05-26T10:14:00.000+08:00

I’m supposed to be in school today to usher the freshies to their enrollment (it’s an org thing) but last night I learned that enrollment day is moved to next week and our classes start not until after jun 12.. so I still have about 3 weeks to savor the last days of vacation! hehe. this is by the way my 18th year of being a student counting from the day I entered kindergarten. And I’m not anymore excited in going back to school. In fact, I’m too lazy to check on the date when classes would start that I’m just waiting for a classmate to call me up and say “oi bakit di ka pumasok kanina?” It might sound like I hate school but the truth is I'd rather go to school than work. besides I love the field I’m into right now. Anyway, I mentioned too much “school” already. I'm not supposed to talk about school in here. This is my other side!

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2004-05-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

I call this a collection of random stuff i bump into my every misadventure. This blog, unlike any other, contains the most ridiculous, insignificant, minor stuff you could ever imagine. So...it starts!

You are the Aqua Marine Mermaid. You are pure and
brave. Strong and True. Your best freind is
your seahorse, your steed. You have fought many
battles in your own life and in the sea. No
matter what challenge you overcome it.
Congratulations there are very few of you.
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